Replacing resentment with joy

Our guild has a nice opportunity to be acknowledged by the community we serve. All we have to do is track our volunteer hours and report it. Not so hard, actually.

Which brings me to a specific volunteer project I'm working on right now. It takes a LOT of time, and I'm struggling with resentment.
Funny thing is, I don't really know what I resent about it. Here are some of my brainstorm ideas, none of which are completely true:

• that I was asked to organize it, when I knew already I'd be participating at a heavy level due to my web responsiblities
• that I don't know how to say no without feeling bad
• that I'm not enjoying the work. Volunteer work ought to be fun
• that to keep this project on track, I'm giving up some things I want to be doing for myself
• that I don't see where I could and should delegate tasks to others

OK, enough analysis. What will it take for me to find the work joyful again? 

• Let go of the things I cannot do.
• I need to tell myself what I tell the people who want to participate, but cannot. I say, "This is a totally voluntary activity. If you do nothing, it's ok. Do what you want and what you can. Don't worry about the rest."

What do I want?

• I want to sew the blocks and make the two patterns I promised, because I want to have them.
• I want the recipient to be absolutely delighted with the result.
• I want to see all the wonderful pieces coming together, and build something for everyone in the future.
• I want to have time to work on my other projects as well.

What can I do?

• I can mentally let go of the long task list, and make sure I reserve time for me and for my other projects every day.
• I can start to figure out how to delegate.
• I can remind myself of what I want from this project every time I start to work down the list of tasks.
• I can make more decisions like I made last night, when I decided I would provide the data to the responsible board member, but let go, and not do more than that.
• I can start finding tasks for those volunteers to work on, and letting those tasks go.
• Make a list - lists help me feel more in control. 

Do I feel more joyful now? Well, not exactly, but at least I see a path to what I want.

What does tonight's list look like?

1. Leave work on time
2. Bath and relaxing
3. Cook
4. Work on a volunteer block pattern
5. Eat dinner and watch Glee on Super RTL
6. Take the rest of the evening OFF

Some less blog-o-genic activities

While I have made a couple of small finishes, to be posted later, mostly I've been working on things that are less suited to blogging (less blog-o-genic, like photogenic. Made that word up myself).
That includes spending WAY TOO MUCH TIME on photo puzzles at Jigsawplanet.
There are lots of quilt pictures there, and I just uploaded my GFG as a large hard puzzle. Hint: the pieces must be rotated.
Links:
     Jigsawplanet
To play puzzles I've created, go to http://www.jigsawplanet.com/karenotto

Do a search on the keyword quilt. Lots of nice puzzles there. I mostly search on the keyword color.

Other activities:

• Inching along on projects like my Mola and Ula Lenz BOM
• Organizing my sewing room a la Flylady
• Going through a major change at work  (we're going Japanese)
• Administrating the web page for our local Blackforest Quilters guild 

That last item takes unpredictable amounts of time. I thought that adding a photo gallery (sorry, members only) would be hard, but it was easy. But then setting up all the needed email addresses was easy, but time-consuming. And a million other things. At least we are using the site, and very well. We have tens of thousands of hits a month - makes it all worthwhile.
And we have a free page now, so go take a look. http://www.blackforestquilters.de/free_public.htm

Round Robin quilt

While I may be familiar with quilts and how they were traditionally made, I'm relatively new at quilt guilds and how group quilting projects function.
It was with trepidation that I signed up for the latest Round Robin project at the Black Forest Guild. I really hate the idea of screwing up someone else's quilt.
At least I chose to do Round Robin in the beginners group, and my group looks like it will be fun. There are, however, just three of us, so if any of you BFQ members reading this wants to join us, there's still time. You should go ahead and follow the rules in the instructions. Contact me if you want to join our group, so I can tell the RR program manager.
The block I've chosen for my center is Bonnie Hunter's Roll Roll Cotton Boll block, including the string corners.
What do you think? Kinda neat, huh? I think there are colors and variety enough to let my group partners do pretty much as they like. Do I need to add my own border around the edge before I send it off?
Know any good links to RR quilts? I'd like to get a sense of things I can do to my partners' quilts that will really make them pop.